I'm in my second year at a local community college, studying god knows what but my personal indecisiveness isn't what should be in question here. I'm disappointed by, and unclear of where, the future of higher education is going. I'm so upset by my course load this semester, and technically I'm not even a full-time student. Instead of trying to dance around details, I'm going to jump into this in a sporadic way, as the thoughts come - I share.
I'm taking 10 credit hours this semester, if you have no idea what that means, I'm basically one class short of being a full-time student. I'm taking three classes this semester - Psychology, Math, and a Spanish class. My Math class is considered 4 credit hours due to the fact I am in the classroom almost 7 hours a week. But personally, my math class? Easy fucking Peasy compared to the rest of my course load. I actually have not a single complaint about that class. My teacher is great, understanding, and doesn't over teach or stress the students out. We have a manageable load to carry this semester.
Spanish, I don't even have a course outline for this class. I received an email from my teacher on Sunday night at 11pm telling me that we could start our assignments for Chapter 3. There were 18 assignments, due by Wednesday. I feel overwhelmed by not knowing anything until he decides to send out an email sharing with us what were doing then rushing around doing all of these assignments as well as the ones that I already have assigned from other classes, and working two jobs. I'm going to explode. Do I blame them for giving out too much work? No. I blame the method the teacher has towards this course. A crazy expectation of what students of a community college can handle.
But Spanish, yeah, that's the least of my rants.
My psychology teacher floors me. She assigns a chapter a week. We must read the chapter and be prepared to take a test on it that weekend. Mind you, I am in a strict classroom class and have yet to do one assignment in a classroom. I have only done assignments online. Every quiz, assignment, and even my mid-term next week will be online. Is this wrong? I'm thinking fucking so. What the fuck did I sign up for a classroom class for when the only thing the woman ever talks about is how much she hates living in the South. Okay, well move back home then and let them hire a teacher that wants to teach us? Pretty simple concept.
I missed the first quiz due to over volume on Blackboard, and sent her an email, she refused to let me make it up, so for the rest of this semester I have been scrambling trying to save my grade, and this week is supposed to be our Spring Break, wanna guess what I am doing? I'm going to be doing two mid - terms, one for Spanish, and one for Psychology and I also have to do my quiz on Chapter 9, and all my written assignments for Psych.
Neither one of those teachers have even remotely taught me anything. I'm over learning, I memorize information and write it down, and that's all. I want a teacher who engages me, who tries to teach, who wants to teach me something. Instead I get these hag who think she's so hard for assigning a chapter a week, and whines about her personal life, and a guy who can't even be bothered to provide us with our grades.
Where the fuck did all the good teachers go? How are they getting away with this at a college level. For those who don't understand the difference between community college and a university, try to brush up. Community college is much like high school and should flow about the same pace. Psychology requires 12-15 hours outside of the 3 classroom hours a week for study time, so between just math and psych I am up to about 25 hours after at-home assignments. I work 35 hours a week currently, and still have to manage my spanish class. So tack on another 5 hours for that. If you can't do the math that's roughly 65 hours a week I am spent shoving my head up someone's ass. AND I'M NOT EVEN GOING TO GET A FANCY DEGREE.
I'm going to die from this. Everyone pray that I can survive the remainder of this semester and give these shitheads the worst evaluation they've ever had and never look back.
Also, to follow up from my last post about buying a house - I think I have made the choice to stay in my tiny apartment a bit longer, possible moving to the larger apartment downstairs, but that's still a toss up. I don't think moving into a house, even though it's a possibility, would be a good move for me. I am not quite sure how long I will be in this area, I finish school in about a year and have a couple different ideas of where/what the future might hold, and most of them don't include this area.
Point of this post? I am ready to make the steps towards purchasing a home for us. To set some roots down some where and be able to make a place ours. I can paint the walls and have more square footage than 580 feet. That would be nice. I'm ready to feel like all the hard work I have been putting in majority of my life is paying off.
I am sure you'll be hearing more about the house hunt, and how the entire process is going. Once the house is purchased, I am sure you'll hear plenty of decorating my nook will go! So cross your fingers!
But for now, we'll enjoy the simple moments we do get with the people that matter the most. I think life is pretty simple when you break it down. It's amazing how much you learn as you grow older and how much more you value the little things like a kiss from your daughter, or when she shares her blanket with you. No more rushing for me, I think that was the biggest realization I have faced these last couple of months. Life is what you make of it, so make it good.
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I know I said I would save my awful before for another day but I decide to share with you anyways, just so you all can have bad dreams about my face for weeks to come. You're so welcome.
The day went off without too much trouble. She did get bitten by a boy in her class, which I couldn't believe. I knew something would happen to this extent when I went to drop her off and the two kids in the corner were running around trying to punch each other - what do you know, what of those fine fellas was the one putting teeth on my kid! I really hope it doesn't happen again tomorrow because I am not quite sure if I'll be so understanding.
She colored pictures, ate breakfast, lunch, and played outside for awhile. In light of her experience with the whole biting ordeal - she seems excited to go back and kick her "college" career's butt!
Now if she could only give me half her motivation for my college career butt kicking...I look a little crazy repeating, "But I don't want to go" while traipsing across campus.
